thank you, for always washing the dishes after my meals, so i wont get wrinkly fingers

thank you, for always counting 1 to 3 before switching off the lights, to get me ready for the darkness

thank you, for allowing me space for my piglets, gougou, oscar, tshirt, so i could sleep comfortably in my preferred way

thank you, for letting me have the better and more convenient bathroom, so i could dress up comfortably

thank you, for sparing 1 room out, just to store my piglets and playthings

thank you, for all the times we spent together, be it good or bad

sorry, for being unreasonable, most of the time

sorry, for being demanding in impossible tasks

sorry, for being such a relationship perfectionist, always picking on nitty gritty stuff, causing u undue misery

sorry, for being pessimistic and negative

sorry, for constantly seeking ur attention, and insists tat its not enough

sorry, tat tis 7 years was not fully cherished and enjoyed to the fullest

sorry, for the things i've said

sorry, for the things i did not say

sorry, for everything tat i should not have said

sorry, tat our difference in thinking is causing a lot of arguements


seeing u happy is my only wish. u might not be able to comprehend now... but u would soon see my point in the near future.

if, only by going ur way, den u'd be happy, i stil would. coz, u've never given me chance for a choice, rite from the start. but... if it makes u happy... i would.

rejection.. came with misery

acceptance.... brought pain

最后一次

每次听，都好想哭...


在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

先走了 去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出 等不到天亮
所有回忆 抹去 却并不容易
生死由天决定 不要太伤心

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

我 永远 爱你。

Bucket List - updated ver 1

1. sing and dance in the rain - checked

2. fulfil my promise to celyn tat we'll go on an all girls trip and party like crazy - checked (if u count batam)

3. learn how to do a real body wave. (i cant dance, damn) - stil learning, about there.

4. visit more den 12 countries - m'sia, taipei, bangkok, perth, batam, switzerland, paris, london, germany, (can i count dubai if its just transit? heh)3 more to go.

5. skinny dip

6. make a stranger smile, and remember tat i made him/her happy for tat 2 secs - checked

7. help out some old folks and orphans

8. go on a lone trip, to connect with nature physically and spiritually

9. give those around me, good memories to remember me by

10. take a photo of a nite sky full of glittering stars

11. free my thoughts

list is subjected to changes.

Happy Birthday Ah Choo!!!

went ktv with the girls last nite to celebrate ah choo's(songci) bday. was a blast! laughed till we rolled around the sofas. i wonder... y is it tat the older we are, the crazier we get? was fun.. screaming, shouting, laughing, affectionately singing hokkien oldies, passionately screaming rock songs, and even jumping around on the sofa. ah choo even tried to imitate jolin tsai's dance moves!! can u believe tat? our oh-so-serious dajie lei!! hahaha.. my throat is hurting from all the screamings...

oh ya... idiotic celyn and cindy... secretly recorded me and songci singing 为你而活- 神木与瞳. but we stil noticed. ahaha.. silly girls. and they refused to delete it. damn.

we also tried playing our version of "dun forget the lyrics". someone will sing a song, halfway, we'd pause it, and shes supposed to sing the next line. category is, songs of our schooling era. very nostalgic and fun. and cindy kept saying 来唱ktv而已嘛，为什么要弄到自己酱stress??!!! hahaha... funny rite? but the singing was really quite stress... keke.

celyn loved to sing tis song... and it kinda got stuck in my head from last nite.. quite nice..

《秘密- 黎瑞恩》

好想告訴你　
這熟悉的雨季　
最適合在深夜想你
想你溫柔眼睛　
想你專注神情　
想念你甜言蜜語

好想問問你　
今天的心情　
才想起你早已遠離
卻又發現自己　
仍活在回憶裡　
以為身旁還有你

如果這一生我們愛不夠　
來生你千萬認得我
如果這一生我給得不夠　
來生給你所有的我

就把你深深藏在我心中　
一輩子再也不對別人說
說我曾經愛過你　
我曾經為你笑過哭過

就把你深深藏在我心中　
一輩子再也不對別人說
就算他日再相遇　
也笑著與你擦肩而過

不说，不代表我不在乎
不哭，不代表我不难过
坚持，不代表我不痛
沉默，不是我没话说
我答应，不是我不介意
我没有闹，不是我成熟



我笑，不等于快乐

after frustrating for days on wat to do with my life from now.. i've come to a conclusion.... i've really got nothing to do... hahaha...

so... i've decided.. since i've had such a "fulfilling a.k.a. meaningless" life, y not help others?

therefore, kind and helpful fibi decided to........ do voluntary work! tah dah!! *applause* *whistles* *screams*

okok... cool it, calm down. i know, i know.. unbelievable.. tat not only is fibi unbelievably cute, understanding, sweet, adorable, gorgeous... shes.. shes.. omg.. shes kind and humane? heh.

hmm.. maybe i'll even set up a committee, or organization... wat should i call it? Almighty Fibi Foundation? (AFF)

slogan : here i come to save the day!!! mighty fibi's on the way!!! ahahaha (familiar song?)

motto: Let AFF help U! we call it AFF U!

wahahaha... so narcissistic.. keke.

ok, enuf crap. anybody who has volunteer work lobangs, or wants to join me.. ring me... no, no, i wont marry u... i mean.. call me.

ppl, i'm serious bout the voluntary work thingy. i'm just a lil itsy bitsy bit crappy. tats all.. comon.. a lil joke wont kill...